Grace is something you get whether you deserve it or not. It is like grease or oil that helps the engine to run and not get stuck. It is neither positive nor negative. And it is always available.
My Consciousness is confined within a bundle of samskara’s which defines my mind. At some future time this samskara will express itself, complete itself, and then, it is called karma, action happening now. Samskara is the bottled up energy in the mind that was somehow not completed when the original action was done.
As a result of grace, this bundle of samskara’s is vibrated and some of these samskara's are released. This release allows me to see the world and my condition in a new way. However the remaining samskara’s act as a filter (some would call it ego) and through this filter I interpret my world as good or bad when actually it is only a process of returning to my orginal state of Oneness. When all my samskara’s are released then my individual consciousness can merge in Cosmic Consciousness and that is Yoga, union, my goal.
It is how I respond to grace that defines it as good or bad. Grace is neither positive nor negative. I personally do not agree that samskara’s are good or bad. Whether you define them as good or bad, they still confine my consciousness and it is my thirst for limitlessness that pulls me out of that confinement. Spirituality is a process of greater and greater intimacy called bhakti.
It is also the belief that I have only one life to live that gives a kind of finality to my experience. I may at first consider my experience as bad but then further down the road I may realize that because of that"bad" experience I had great realizations. Spirituality is not a business of profit and loss, good and bad, heaven and hell. Everything has to be brought in relationship. Keeping the Beloved always in my mind, a mental effort, is my karma that leads to bhakti.
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